Birthday

Yesterday I turned 29 and don't feel a day over 80 :). It's funny and crazy at the same time how fast time flies when your having fun. It seems like yesterday I was riding on my daddy's shoulders through the park and then fast forward 10 years and I met my high school sweetheart who I married (we've been together 14 years) and fast forward to now and I have a 8 year old and a 5 year old. I wouldn't change any of my 29 years on this earth for anything. Even though I live every day with Fibromyalgia. I found a quote yesterday and I love it "No matter how good or bad you think your life is, wake up each day and be thankful for life. Someone some where else is fighting to survive."

Food For Thought

I never knew how hard the battle I would be facing each day with pain and trying to put a smile on my face to hide it. I'm learning to live with it but it's hard. Every morning I get up and I am vomitting because the pain is so intense. I get so fatigued throughout the day and sometimes it gets so hard to bare so I have to go home and lay down. I get so angry when people talk behind my back and make comments about me. Even the people that are close to me; family, friends, and co workers look at me with sympathy but inside I know they are thinking that there is nothing wrong with her. I wish everyone would go to ButYouDontLookSick.com either on facebook or on the web and read all the stories of people just like me that are fighting to feel good. Ask yourself if you woke up everyday hurting and feeling like you could stay in bed all day; would you be able to deal with it. I didn't ask to be dealt the hand I've been dealt, but I'm trusting in God to help me over come this. So what I really want everyone to know is do not judge people with out knowing them and really know what is going on in their life. <3

Cheers To New Beginnings

I know it's been a while since I wrote last. A lot of things that have happened, I have had severe pain, I've had to miss work more than I wanted to, and my life has been crazy full of mountains to over come. So today I went to a Pain Specialist in Conway and he recommended so many things I can't even go through them all but one that sticks out the most is stop making excuses for my Fibro. It is not my fault I have Fibro and I shouldn't be ashamed or feel like I need to explain it to everyone that asks. He also said that I need to work on the stress in my life and let go of what is stressing me out and let the people know that are stressing me out. It was almost like he was looking into my eyes and reading my life story like a book. So I have made a promise to myself to work on a stress free life, exercising (light of course don't want to cause more pain than I'm already in..lol), and talking to a counselor about what I'm going through. So Cheers To New Beginnings!!

Hurting

Wow, my back is killing me. My husband and I moved the rest of our things this week to Russellville. I tried not to pick boxes that were too heavy, but I couldn't let him do it all on his own. In addition to that the weather has been rainy and that always for some reason effects my fibro just like if I had arthritis. What gets me is some people look at me like there is nothing wrong with me. That hurts me so bad, I try not to let it but it does. I hurt so bad tears kept coming to my eyes when I was at work but I made almost all day before I used my iintermittent  FMLA for the last couple hours of work. I am blessed that I can work and I am blessed to have a husband that understands my pain. Another thing that urks me is that people love to tell me how bad they feel all the time and when I open my mouth to tell how I feel they just ignore what I have to say. I will beat this fibro and I will not let it get me down.

I LOVE SUMMER

Today my body ached all over and I'm still trying to get over this cold. It was so cold today. We were lucky that we missed the ice, but we didn't miss the cold wind and the freezing temperatures. I remember when I was young loving winter and snow. But not anymore, I LOVE SUMMER. :-) That is the best time for me, I'm relaxed and I don't hurt as much. So I hope the ground hog was right and we will have an early spring.

Spoke to Soon :(

Well if its not my fibro bothering me its a cold bothering me.  Grrrrrr! I felt so good yesterday during the day and by the end of the night I was sick. This weather is starting to get on my nerves. I'm ready for warm weather. Swimming, Camping, and hanging outdoors....Oh I hope the summer comes soon.

Getting Healthy

I'm feeling wonderful. I went to the doctor a week ago and the meds are working great. Now I want to start getting healthier. My wonderful sister told me that she would start walking with me in the evenings. The only thing I need to work on now is learning to like veggies. My mom and dad tried to get me to eat them but I just hated them. Now I wish I would have made a better effort to like them. It's funny because I always put veggies on my boy's plates but never on mine. But the reason I do that is because I don't want the to be like me and hate veggies. I'm just happy that I'm feeling better, I know I will never be cured. But I will take how I'm feeling these days over any of my bad days.