Cheers To New Beginnings

I know it's been a while since I wrote last. A lot of things that have happened, I have had severe pain, I've had to miss work more than I wanted to, and my life has been crazy full of mountains to over come. So today I went to a Pain Specialist in Conway and he recommended so many things I can't even go through them all but one that sticks out the most is stop making excuses for my Fibro. It is not my fault I have Fibro and I shouldn't be ashamed or feel like I need to explain it to everyone that asks. He also said that I need to work on the stress in my life and let go of what is stressing me out and let the people know that are stressing me out. It was almost like he was looking into my eyes and reading my life story like a book. So I have made a promise to myself to work on a stress free life, exercising (light of course don't want to cause more pain than I'm already in..lol), and talking to a counselor about what I'm going through. So Cheers To New Beginnings!!

Hurting

Wow, my back is killing me. My husband and I moved the rest of our things this week to Russellville. I tried not to pick boxes that were too heavy, but I couldn't let him do it all on his own. In addition to that the weather has been rainy and that always for some reason effects my fibro just like if I had arthritis. What gets me is some people look at me like there is nothing wrong with me. That hurts me so bad, I try not to let it but it does. I hurt so bad tears kept coming to my eyes when I was at work but I made almost all day before I used my iintermittent  FMLA for the last couple hours of work. I am blessed that I can work and I am blessed to have a husband that understands my pain. Another thing that urks me is that people love to tell me how bad they feel all the time and when I open my mouth to tell how I feel they just ignore what I have to say. I will beat this fibro and I will not let it get me down.

I LOVE SUMMER

Today my body ached all over and I'm still trying to get over this cold. It was so cold today. We were lucky that we missed the ice, but we didn't miss the cold wind and the freezing temperatures. I remember when I was young loving winter and snow. But not anymore, I LOVE SUMMER. :-) That is the best time for me, I'm relaxed and I don't hurt as much. So I hope the ground hog was right and we will have an early spring.

Spoke to Soon :(

Well if its not my fibro bothering me its a cold bothering me.  Grrrrrr! I felt so good yesterday during the day and by the end of the night I was sick. This weather is starting to get on my nerves. I'm ready for warm weather. Swimming, Camping, and hanging outdoors....Oh I hope the summer comes soon.

Getting Healthy

I'm feeling wonderful. I went to the doctor a week ago and the meds are working great. Now I want to start getting healthier. My wonderful sister told me that she would start walking with me in the evenings. The only thing I need to work on now is learning to like veggies. My mom and dad tried to get me to eat them but I just hated them. Now I wish I would have made a better effort to like them. It's funny because I always put veggies on my boy's plates but never on mine. But the reason I do that is because I don't want the to be like me and hate veggies. I'm just happy that I'm feeling better, I know I will never be cured. But I will take how I'm feeling these days over any of my bad days.

It's going to be a great week!

Today is going to be a good day. I'm not hurting to bad. Its my day off and I'm spending the day with my boys and my husband. I've had some hard days last week. The pain got so bad one day I was vomiting and thought I was going to die. But I'm feeling alot better this week, even though its just Monday and I haven't even made it through the first day of the week. lol Tomorrow is my husband and I's eight year anniversary. Wow time flies, we have been together for twelve years. I still remember the first song we ever danced to...Eric Clapton's Wonderful Tonight. My husband has blessed me with the greatest gift I could ever ask for, the gift of being a mother. Even on my darkest days my boys always know how to brighten them up. I love them all so much.

It's Cold

Believe it or not the weather really does cause people pain. It's snowing today and my whole body is hurting. I have a weird tingling feeling from my head to my toes.  I'm glad I'm off work tomorrow. I'm staying inside by the fire and enjoying time with my boys. :-) But I'm sure they will be wanting to play in the snow. I'll let there daddy go out with them. lol

Better Days

Well today was interesting day. I woke up and today my back felt 10 times better, but my neck felt like I had a huge knot in it. I love how you never know what part of your body is going to hurt from day to day. As the day went on my back and shoulder starting hurting again. Sometimes its hard to concentrate on what I'm doing when the pain gets bad. The thing about it is I smiled and went on about my day. I smile to cover up how I'm really feeling. I went out to eat with my family tonight and had a great time laughing and talking about the craziest things. So my motto today is laughter is the best medicine. :-)

Pain Pain Go Away

Well this the third day in a row my back is killing me. Even though my its killing me I had to get up and get my day started. We spent the whole day getting a new car (well used but new to us) and I absolutely love it. It made a dark cloudy week look a little brighter. You know I know that it sounds corney but I guess when life gives you lemons make lemonade is my motto right now and that's exactly what I'm going to do. I'm taking it one day at time.

Learning A Little More Each Day

Today my back has ached and burned all day. I put on a good front, to everyone but sometimes it hurts so bad I want to cry. When I got to my mother and father in law's house my mother in law Margaret made mexican chicken and it was so delicious. Not that it takes the pain away but it sure made me happy. My husband and I are blessed to have such wonderful parents who are always here for us even when we are at our lowest. I guess I haven't explained when I first found out I had fibro, I was 22 years old my mom and dad had invited me and my oldest son who was my only child at the time to go swimming at the Mulberry River. My sister and her husband and their two children were there as well as my brother and his child. It was a beautiful day and we were having a blast swimming and just hanging out in the sun. I had set my son who was around 18 months old down on a towel and I was about to sit down beside him. Then it hit me the sharpest pain that felt like it was going straight through my heart to my back. Everyone came running over and were trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I could barely talk because the pain was so bad. All I could say was get me to the hospital which was about 45 minutes away. So my mom and dad got me into there truck and rushed me to the hospital. I will never forget my dad holding my hand telling me to hold on that I was going to be ok. I kept looking at my son and I told them to call my husband who had went fishing with his dad and grandpa that day. When I made to the hospital of course they took my blood to do a test to see if I was on some type of drug. Then after the results came back negative they gave me a shot of morphine, well that didn't work. The pain was still terrible, so after 7 shots my husband told them not to give me anymore because it was working for one thing and come to find out I was allergic to morphine. I had an EKG done and MRI done that day. After about 4 hours the pain started easing and my doctor kept me over night for observations. The next day I had a terrible head ache from the morphine but my pain had gotten a lot better. I was released and went home to rest. My doctor called me later that day and told me that my EKG had shown that I had Mitral Valve Prolapse of the heart and she wanted me to come in for her to do more tests the next day. After all the testing, I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and I was her youngest patient at the time who had it. This would be the first of many trips to the doctor and many new medications. Also, it would not be last time I had to be hospitalized....

Things Change

Today I have learned that things change, no matter how much you don't want it to change. I got up thinking this is going to be a good day and it changed rapidly. I'm just going to have faith that everything is going to be better and keeping on keeping on.....

One Day at a Time

Today I woke up sore and it doesn't help that I couldn't sleep at night because of the pain in my neck, back, and legs. I was thinking to myself today about when I was a little girl how my daddy had to carry me because I would get so tired from walking or just normal playing. You see I was born with a heart murmur and I can remember at night my heart racing and  my momma staying up with me late into the night scared that it would stop. We were poor when I was young and my parents did the best they could to make sure that I got the medical attention I needed. The doctors told them that if it didn't close on its own that I would end up having surgery. By the time I was seven years old my murmur had closed. My parents were so excited thats what they had been praying for. From then on I lived a pretty active life through my teenage years. My mom and I would walk 6 miles a day and excercise daily. Who would have thought later in life I would begin another fight. A fight against fibro...

Starting A New Year

Today I woke up feeling better than I have been feeling the past few weeks. Most people thinks that Fibromyalgia is all in your head, well if you are one of those people here is a little background about Fibromyalgia.  Fibromyalgia is a chronic condition characterized by widespread pain in your muscles, ligaments and tendons, as well as fatigue and multiple tender points — places on your body where slight pressure causes pain. Fibromyalgia occurs in about 2 percent of the population in the United States. Women are much more likely to develop the disorder than are men, and the risk of fibromyalgia increases with age. Fibromyalgia symptoms often begin after a physical or emotional trauma, but in many cases there appears to be no triggering event. This being said the next time someone tells you that they have Fibromyalgia think about the day to day pain they go through. I will be 27 years old in March and I have suffered from it for 5 years. Some days the pain is so bad I can't get out of bed and somedays I feel great. I take medication for depression due to the fact that there is no cure for Fibro. I have been on several medications for fibro and some of them of have worked, but only for a short while and the symptoms come back. Imagine trying to raise two children under the age of six and work a full time job and your in pain the whole time. This is my goal to beat Fibro before it beats me this year.